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In Memoriam or, Look Ma! I'm a Time-Traveller! [Jan. 23rd, 2005|12:20 pm]
Young Geoffrey
Five cigarettes remain in their sleeve, five slender white cylinders of death, five more hits of the drug that has been my monkey for too close to a quarter century.

This is it.

(A quarter million down, five to go.)

I'm quitting. Damn it, this time I'm really going to do it, no matter how much the little voice in the back of my head begs and pleads, lies and manipulates; no matter how bitchy I get, no matter how depressed or angry I become.

I'm quitting.

(A quarter million down, five to go.)

Goodbye to the after-meal smoke; goodbye to the morning toke; goodbye to stained teeth and tarry phlegm; goodbye to the calming rituals and the smoldering break-timer; goodbye to hazy drunken nights and after-hockey puffs; goodbye to gelid fingers and reeking apartment.

Goodbye. Though you've been nothing but a murderous burden, a sadistic yoke, a pair of handcuffs on my freedom, I'll miss you.
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From: patriarch420
2005-01-23 05:56 pm (UTC)

So Proud.

Hey baby.
Two things, not in order of imporatance.

Sweet icon, number one.

Number two- I'm so proud of you!! and do hope that you succeed... how many days should I give you to insure that I avoid the PMS like behavior should it occur?

Take care sweet pea

Love,

Laura
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[User Picture]From: ed_rex
2005-01-23 06:22 pm (UTC)

Re: So Proud.

Thank you, sweet darling.

1. I like the icon, too - some day I'll force convince you to watch The Wrath of Khan with me.

2. Better give me three days. I should be human again by Thursday.
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[User Picture]From: stolen_identity
2005-01-24 04:10 pm (UTC)
you should read that positive visualization article that i posted a few days ago ;)
instead of saying that you're "going to quit smoking" (which is negative visualization, because first your brain has to process the image of you smoking, and then the notion of stopping)... you should visualize "clean air, fresh lungs" etc...

i was incredibly impressed by the article ;)
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[User Picture]From: ed_rex
2005-01-26 12:07 am (UTC)
It's possible my brain is even more addled by withdrawal than I thought it was, but that actually sounds like a good idea - I'm not missing smoking, I'm looking forward to breathing free; I'm not missing smoking, I'm looking forward to breathing free; I'm not missing smoking, I'm looking forward to breathing free; I'm not missing smoking, I'm looking forward to breathing free -

Er, etcetera.

Fresh lungs, fresh lungs.

At the very least, I don't see how it can hurt.

Thank you, KT.
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[User Picture]From: stolen_identity
2005-01-26 03:06 am (UTC)
no problem :)
you can do it. i have faith in you!
good luck!
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[User Picture]From: offermeescape
2005-01-25 11:51 pm (UTC)
You can do it man. I quit cold turkey after 7 years of a pack-a-day smoking. You'll feel way more healthy in the end. Obvious, but patience is required. Chew tons of gum - that helps. And don't contact anyone you love for the first week you quit. Your temper may prove fatal during that period. ;)
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[User Picture]From: ed_rex
2005-01-26 12:12 am (UTC)
Yeah, the temper's not good: I found myself yelling at a barking dog at the office today. ("Shut the fuck up, Skippy!" is not the way to establish a (good) reputation at work.)

I made a conscious decision this time to eschew (er, no pun intended) gum this try, though. Logic being, why reinforce the oral habit?

But yes, patience is a virtue in short supply just now.
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